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This morning the temperature was low, the air was fresh and comfortable but at the same time this cool air makes me feel a bit lost, forlorn. The rare moment when I feel regret about I don't have my own family.
On lunchtime I was reading Hornblower fanfiction on my computer,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
idler_1814's Shades of Glory. A sad but beautiful story about a wrecked sailor and a ship. And maybe because I've felt blue all the morning and my physical condition was not the best, I happened to be very sensitive today, it brought unexpected tears to my eyes.
A broken dream, unfulfilled hope, disappointment of life, ...still we have to go. For it's duty for each of us human beings.
"As he grows older, ... he has not that same unspeakable trust in what he would have done had he been spared..." my favorite author R.L.Stevenson wrote. Maybe it's true, and when he wrote this he was far younger than I am at present. But sometimes I still can not accept this grim reality. No more "trust" maybe, but hopefully, "desire"? or at least... "dream"?
On lunchtime I was reading Hornblower fanfiction on my computer,
idler_1814's Shades of Glory. A sad but beautiful story about a wrecked sailor and a ship. And maybe because I've felt blue all the morning and my physical condition was not the best, I happened to be very sensitive today, it brought unexpected tears to my eyes.A broken dream, unfulfilled hope, disappointment of life, ...still we have to go. For it's duty for each of us human beings.
"As he grows older, ... he has not that same unspeakable trust in what he would have done had he been spared..." my favorite author R.L.Stevenson wrote. Maybe it's true, and when he wrote this he was far younger than I am at present. But sometimes I still can not accept this grim reality. No more "trust" maybe, but hopefully, "desire"? or at least... "dream"?