Something heavy…

[katriona_s]

It's spring now. Even on a gloomy day we can see many flowers or fresh leaves which make me feel good and cheerful. Though recently I notice I am somewhat in a slight depresison :( There is some heaviness in my mind always. During the daytime of weekend I have many things to do in the garden so it's good, but in the evening I feel this heaviness and find a little energy to do something creative. One of the reasons might be the anxiety about the surgery my mother will be having this week and maybe in June. And about the uncertainty of life in near future? Or, this might be just because I don't have the plan of my holiday trip - I'm not sure about how mother would manage after the surgery and not feeling like planning a long trip abroad :( Maybe I should make a short domestic travel, maybe to kayak on some beach in near future. Not sure... Anyway at least I'm fortunate to have the nice house and garden I have to take care of, and my rabbit who always cheers me up :)

Comments

[vera_j]

It is natural you are worried about your mother´s surgery - who would not? But I believe you wrote about your mother´s good condition, so hopefully she will be all right. And the life...well, who knows? But it would be not good nor useful to thing only about bad scenarios. We live NOW and we have to try and live well NOW. I mean . we can all be useful in a way. I am sure there are majority of people like you or me or our friends who want our world better - and do their best, if only to be good, caring and tolerant...

[katriona_s]

Thank you. Yes I believe mother will be all right.
Though, on such time I find how much I mentally still rely on my mother X(. I am in the age when I can have my grandchildren, still, mother is always a mother.

[sallymn]

Sending heaps and heaps of good wishes for your mother - it is natural to worry, but so take care and be kind to yourself as you wait.

[katriona_s]

Thank you very much for your kind words :)