grumbling in the late afternoon

[katriona_s]

Today it's sunny and we had nice sunshine, but it's winter now and after 16:00 it's becoming dark and even in the office the temperature becam chillier. And with no co-worker I can talk about our job or other things earnestly, nor the belief that our job has some meaning and someone would evaluate my job properly, I easily feel blue in such winter afternoon. Though I know well that this is not because of my job but because of the unfulfille private life of mine. There are many things I want to do or need to do or think & decide but I have accomplished just a little and the list of the things which I haven't done becomes longer and longer... There are people who is quick and efficient, and feels little hesitation & regret about the things they've done. I envy those people. I just think and irresolute, waste the presious time often, and I'm very lazy and need much energy to start the new things. The life is short, and precious, I should stop grumbling and just do something - I know it well. Still today too, I accomplish very little and disappointed myself...