Chilly autumn day, and thought

[katriona_s]

Working @home day. Cloudy and chilly. In my garden toad lily is in full bloom, and the persimmon fruits are turning red now.





Autumn is deepening…



And this is such a anxious autumn. Last year, and 2 year before, also I have been worrying about the future. But then I was mainly worrying about the pandemic, and about some personal problems. Now one mad tyrant is going to destroy one country and its people and culture, and the order and the peace of the whole world, and there are some other ones - very near to my country - who would gladly continue the demolition. The things in my country, and my own situation are not very bad yet at the moment though I can have little good prospect for the future of our society. When I look at the news program to see what Russians are doing to the people and cities of Ukraine I really tremble with anger. When I think about the helpless situation in my own country I feel sheer despair. For three years we have dreamed the days when our “ordinary life” would return though in the bottom of our mind we know well that it would never return. Compared to many other people I am fortunate and I still have many happy, good things in my life. But I doubt that the days would come when I can travel abroad and see my foreign friends again. You might think that it’s just holiday trip and not important, but to me, foreign travels are not just for fun, not just enjoyable pastime on holiday. They have been somewhat the core of my life for over 30 years, what I have found and got on my travels is like the meaning of my life. But at the same time I know well that I ask too much when so many people are killed, suffering and dying at this moment…

And yes I have Krurun here, having a pretty healthy appetite. So of course I should not complain…

Comments

[vera_j]

Thinking too much is crushing. Better to go and do something, something small. We live in a small place and we try to do such small things - activities for our children, gathering with music at the local pub, our traditional fish harvest with a feast after that, an annual meeting of our firefighter volunteers, advent charity market...whatever can get people together and support optimism. There is a hard winter for us ahead - and even harder for the Ukrainians! But we are still lucky to live in peace and I am not going to waste it...

[katriona_s]

You are totally right. One of the reasons of my anxiety might be that I don’t have much human relationship here. We have little opportunity to do something together with our neighbours. There are too many people living in a big city like Yokohama. Of course we can join some cultural classes or volunteer groups but with the full time job it’s not easy to do so…